There is no way to win in this situation. Theres nothing I can do to keep everyone from being hurt. Do I hurt myself and child so that everyone else doesnt get hurt? Or do I hurt everyone else so that my child and I are okay. I know it would be hard to bring another child into the world, im not living in fantasy world. Been there, done that I get it. But there is no part of me that regrets bring my daughter into this world, no matter how hard it is at times. So much of me would regret aborting. I know this. Guy #1 seems to think this will fade over time. It doesn't, in fact for me I just feel worse about it. I think about it every single day.
He treated me just like my first ex did. I think thats been the most hurtful thing about this. He had said to me before he liked the idea that i could possibly be pregnant, and that if we ever got together again he'd want to have unprotected sex again. He's also "claimed" to be pro-life and in the past had even made me feel guilty for my choices. But now when push comes to shove he's totally different. He has no idea what he's done to me. Atleast my ex had the excuse of being 18 and just out of highschool. He has no excuse for his actions. Makes me really glad he is with the other girl because this has made me see his true colors. I wouldn't want to be with anyone who could EVER treat me like that.
I should of stood up for myself the first time. I haven't made up my mind either way yet. I thought I had but being that I really dont want to lie to anyone i pretty much told guy #1 my plan. I shouldnt of spoke up but i didnt know what else to do.