Today has been a very hard day. So we got to the hotel late last night and pretty much went to bed right away. We woke up this morning, ordered room service, got ready for the day and over to the hospital. You would of thought we were royality or something by the greeting they gave us. A bunch of doctors met us in the lobby, we got a tour and then settled into a room. They grew a ton of blood and checked her out. We went over everything that could be wrong, what they would test for first and what not. They majorly hooked us up in the hospital room. We had a PS3, large flat screen tv, a mini fridge stocked with drinks and snack, dvd player (they have a movie rental area for the kids), tons of board games, and a doll house. It was like hanging out at the toy store all day! I also went on a more detailed tour then everyone else and was able to ask questions and what not.
Two things really touched my heart today and has made me want to get back into volunteering. 1- We went by the preemie area and it just about broke my heart. I've toured it before but this was the first time as a parent. 2- This has given me an idea for what type of volunteer work i'd like to do. I was on the tour and passing a room. Normally I don't look in rooms, anyone who has stayed over in a hospital and made to leave the door open will understand. Anyway I noticed a young boy sitting in the door way for a room (which is what caught my eye and got me to look in the room), playing with a toy car. I saw what I assume was his sibbling sitting up in a bed and his parents, a doctor and nurse all basically in a circle around the bed talking. While I left horrible for the sick child, I felt just as bad for the little boy playing with the car. I was able to relate to him.
So what I'd like to do is start a sibbling program or something for the sibblings of the sick kids. The Doctor I was speaking with loves my idea and we're going to try and figure something out. It would be amazing to have a program that I thought of come to life.
So far so good on kiddos tests. No real answers as of now, but very few results came back today. I have so much more to write, but im tired.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
WOW!
Geez this past week has been insane! Sooooo much happened that I don't even know where to start. I guess i'll start with the good. The older kids start school tomorrow (very excited). We didnt get to go clothes shopping yet, but we hope to next weekend. The reason we didn't go shopping is because my ex needed to come and pick up his stuff on Friday, and Kiddo needs to have some tests done in Indy tomorrow.
We're still in NC because I decided to get a home inspection done before I got an offer because if somethings going to come up I want to know about it now rather then later. Nothing major has come up, well nothing major that we didn't expect. The chimney is shot and if someone wants to use it, it would need to be fix. But the inspector said he sees roughly 80% of chimneys like that now since people don't really use them anymore. Of course home owners insurance doesn't cover that. I told greg to tie a metal pole to the top and pray for lightning since lightning damage is covered. LOL of course i'd never do that.
We got a super faint line on a home pregnancy test on Saturday, and a bit darker one today. Not by much, but a line is a line right?! Im trying not to get my hopes up but im 99% positive im pregnant. We wont start telling people until a doctor confirms it and that its a healthy pregnancy. All I want to do is call every single person I know and tell them lol. Im sooooo not a good happy secret keeper. I think Greg and I are both in shock.
Things are still amazing between us. It's crazy how well we get along. I feel like i've matured so much in the past few months. He makes me want to be a better person, and I love that. Even though life is a bit crazy right now I wouldn't trade it for anything. I have so much to be happy for and God has really blessed me so much more then I ever knew. I'm trying to work on my faults, which I think is going well, and it's making me into a much better person.
I feel like im a much better mom, and now with family in my life parenting is so much more enjoyable. I love having someone to share my days with, to help me out at bath time, to tell what cute new thing kiddo did, to let me rest when I need it and mostly to be a REAL father to my child. The good days are finally starting to out number the bad and im moving on from the old me :)
"Life isn't waiting for the storm to pass..It's about learning to dance in the rain"
We're still in NC because I decided to get a home inspection done before I got an offer because if somethings going to come up I want to know about it now rather then later. Nothing major has come up, well nothing major that we didn't expect. The chimney is shot and if someone wants to use it, it would need to be fix. But the inspector said he sees roughly 80% of chimneys like that now since people don't really use them anymore. Of course home owners insurance doesn't cover that. I told greg to tie a metal pole to the top and pray for lightning since lightning damage is covered. LOL of course i'd never do that.
We got a super faint line on a home pregnancy test on Saturday, and a bit darker one today. Not by much, but a line is a line right?! Im trying not to get my hopes up but im 99% positive im pregnant. We wont start telling people until a doctor confirms it and that its a healthy pregnancy. All I want to do is call every single person I know and tell them lol. Im sooooo not a good happy secret keeper. I think Greg and I are both in shock.
Things are still amazing between us. It's crazy how well we get along. I feel like i've matured so much in the past few months. He makes me want to be a better person, and I love that. Even though life is a bit crazy right now I wouldn't trade it for anything. I have so much to be happy for and God has really blessed me so much more then I ever knew. I'm trying to work on my faults, which I think is going well, and it's making me into a much better person.
I feel like im a much better mom, and now with family in my life parenting is so much more enjoyable. I love having someone to share my days with, to help me out at bath time, to tell what cute new thing kiddo did, to let me rest when I need it and mostly to be a REAL father to my child. The good days are finally starting to out number the bad and im moving on from the old me :)
"Life isn't waiting for the storm to pass..It's about learning to dance in the rain"
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Like a dream
Life has been almost perfect lately. I never knew being this happy was even possible. I feel like for the first time everything fits and is right. Im where I should be, and im with the person Im meant to be with. Every moment I spend with him just makes me even more sure of that. I feel like im finally at the end of the tunnel and standing in the light. It's an awesome feeling.
We left for vacation on Monday and drove to OH. Had a blast doing Amish stuff, which is kinda funny that we drove to OH to do that when we could drive 20 minutes and do that in IN. Went to the spa, ate tons of food, and just hung out as a family.
After that was my MIL's party, which was amazing as well. I think there were 60ish people there and everyone just let loose and had a ball. Kiddo ended up singing a few songs to her, and pretty much danced nonstop the whole night. lol it was cute.
For the record Iam NOT pregnant. I was really let down at first which is why i didn't want to talk about it. Im still let down, but it will happen when it happens. I was so positive I was, because I mean how many times have I got pregnant by mistake. I felt like if I could get pregnant by a one night stand I should for sure get pregnant right away when I try. Thats the only thing that could make life better right now, everything else is perfect. Everyone and their mother seems to be pregnant right now. I found out within 24 hours that 2 different friends were pregnant, I have a cousin about ready to pop, and I have countless other friends expecting. AND all bu 1 person is expecting their 2nd or 3rd child. Im kinda the odd one out with 1.
Its insane how much I want to be pregnant right now. I've always wanted kids, but after having my daughter I wasn't sure if I wanted another. But these last few months i've had a really strong urge for another, and then I met Greg. Its so much more then an urge now. I think about it non-stop. I could really see us having 3 or 4together, something I never would of dreamed about wanting just 6 months ago.
I can't believe how much life has changed since may/june to now. Im still sad over everything, and there are days it really gets me down. But now I have someone to lean on, on those days which makes them less painful. I truly feel blessed.
We still haven't decided about a large wedding or not. It's so much to plan and we have so much going on already. The timing doesn't feel right, but we havent 100% ruled it out yet. My Grandparents have offered to let us use their hotel (which is very close to where we live), and anything that the hotel provides is our for no charge! How awesome is that! My Grandparents are nothing short of amazing. They've been nothing but giving and helpful to us. My grandpa is in love with Greg. He's known him for many years and I guess always thought very highly of him.
Well it's time to get out of bed and start the day :)
We left for vacation on Monday and drove to OH. Had a blast doing Amish stuff, which is kinda funny that we drove to OH to do that when we could drive 20 minutes and do that in IN. Went to the spa, ate tons of food, and just hung out as a family.
After that was my MIL's party, which was amazing as well. I think there were 60ish people there and everyone just let loose and had a ball. Kiddo ended up singing a few songs to her, and pretty much danced nonstop the whole night. lol it was cute.
For the record Iam NOT pregnant. I was really let down at first which is why i didn't want to talk about it. Im still let down, but it will happen when it happens. I was so positive I was, because I mean how many times have I got pregnant by mistake. I felt like if I could get pregnant by a one night stand I should for sure get pregnant right away when I try. Thats the only thing that could make life better right now, everything else is perfect. Everyone and their mother seems to be pregnant right now. I found out within 24 hours that 2 different friends were pregnant, I have a cousin about ready to pop, and I have countless other friends expecting. AND all bu 1 person is expecting their 2nd or 3rd child. Im kinda the odd one out with 1.
Its insane how much I want to be pregnant right now. I've always wanted kids, but after having my daughter I wasn't sure if I wanted another. But these last few months i've had a really strong urge for another, and then I met Greg. Its so much more then an urge now. I think about it non-stop. I could really see us having 3 or 4together, something I never would of dreamed about wanting just 6 months ago.
I can't believe how much life has changed since may/june to now. Im still sad over everything, and there are days it really gets me down. But now I have someone to lean on, on those days which makes them less painful. I truly feel blessed.
We still haven't decided about a large wedding or not. It's so much to plan and we have so much going on already. The timing doesn't feel right, but we havent 100% ruled it out yet. My Grandparents have offered to let us use their hotel (which is very close to where we live), and anything that the hotel provides is our for no charge! How awesome is that! My Grandparents are nothing short of amazing. They've been nothing but giving and helpful to us. My grandpa is in love with Greg. He's known him for many years and I guess always thought very highly of him.
Well it's time to get out of bed and start the day :)
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Cleaning spree
I have been cleaning for almost 9 hours! I washed all the windows, all the dishes, have most of the laundry done, basically scrubbed almost every room from top to bottom. I still need to pack and finish 2 more rooms. But on the bright side I learned I underestimate my daughter. I had no idea you could teach a 3 year old to vaccum! Sure enough Greg did. Being that he's an ex Marine he's very into everyone pulling their own weight and helping around the house. So kiddo now had a list of chores. Strip her bed when the sheets need to be washed, she puts all dirty laundry down the chute, vaccum her room, and sort and put all her pjs,underware, and socks away.
Im really excited to go, it's going to be a blast. I think we'll go to IN after that. My house should be ready to be put on the market tonight :)
Im really excited to go, it's going to be a blast. I think we'll go to IN after that. My house should be ready to be put on the market tonight :)
Saturday, August 1, 2009
We know
We know the answer to if we're pregnant or not, but we're not saying anything as of right now. Nothing is wrong or anything, I just should of kept testing to myself.
We leave Monday for our trip. Should be a blast! We go Tuesday to the spa right after breakfast, for 5 hours worth of spa treatments. We'll have a break for lunch somewhere in there, so we'll spend a full day there. After that we're going out for a nice diner (just us) and then back to a kid free cottage we rented. Im sure we'll have breakfast in bed the next morning, before getting 1 more massage and then picking up the kids. It's going to be amazing!
We're also thinking about booking a cruise for this fall. I keep meaning to go (I enjoy cruising), but never set on a date. Now with Greg he's as into traveling as Iam (my ex was not). With my ex on the rare chance he'd agree to go anywhere we always had a horrible time when we were there. I dreaded going anywhere with him. If we drove and there was traffic or some driver that was going in the fast lane it would ruin his mood for the rest of the day. And if we flew and there was a delay, they didn't put our seats together, long lines, basically anything that would ruin his mood as well. I couldnt win.
But with Greg he's just like where have you always wanted to go and lets go. As long as work isn't an issue he's up for leaving at the drop of a hat. Which i love, because im very much like that. His kids have been all over, their very well traveled, which makes me super excited for kiddo and any other kids we have.
Im working like mad to get the house spotless before we leave. Im so far behind on laundry it isnt funny. I really need help once we move everyone in together. For some reason keeping up with laundry has never been a strong point for me. But for the first time in months I cleaned everything out of the pantry, fridge and freezer. Im normally good about keeping up with it, I just havent lately. I got 2 huge trash bags of stuff out. Talk about nasty! But now I have almost no food, and im leaving on vacation for a few days lol. I hate being out of food right before vacation.
We leave Monday for our trip. Should be a blast! We go Tuesday to the spa right after breakfast, for 5 hours worth of spa treatments. We'll have a break for lunch somewhere in there, so we'll spend a full day there. After that we're going out for a nice diner (just us) and then back to a kid free cottage we rented. Im sure we'll have breakfast in bed the next morning, before getting 1 more massage and then picking up the kids. It's going to be amazing!
We're also thinking about booking a cruise for this fall. I keep meaning to go (I enjoy cruising), but never set on a date. Now with Greg he's as into traveling as Iam (my ex was not). With my ex on the rare chance he'd agree to go anywhere we always had a horrible time when we were there. I dreaded going anywhere with him. If we drove and there was traffic or some driver that was going in the fast lane it would ruin his mood for the rest of the day. And if we flew and there was a delay, they didn't put our seats together, long lines, basically anything that would ruin his mood as well. I couldnt win.
But with Greg he's just like where have you always wanted to go and lets go. As long as work isn't an issue he's up for leaving at the drop of a hat. Which i love, because im very much like that. His kids have been all over, their very well traveled, which makes me super excited for kiddo and any other kids we have.
Im working like mad to get the house spotless before we leave. Im so far behind on laundry it isnt funny. I really need help once we move everyone in together. For some reason keeping up with laundry has never been a strong point for me. But for the first time in months I cleaned everything out of the pantry, fridge and freezer. Im normally good about keeping up with it, I just havent lately. I got 2 huge trash bags of stuff out. Talk about nasty! But now I have almost no food, and im leaving on vacation for a few days lol. I hate being out of food right before vacation.
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