Pissed off

Im really fucking pissed of at guy #1. Iam a little at guy #2, but i understand where he's coming from. He's not mad about the pregnancy, he's mad I lied and cheated on him. He has every right to feel the way he does. I understand why he would pull away from me right now. But guy #1 I thought was a good guy. He's someone I thought would be there for me atleast as a friend. Im totally shocked he's acting the way he is towards me. I get it I lied about taking the morning after pill (i was so positive i wasnt ovulating, and i didn't think he came in me). He says he's not mad but I can tell its a lie. I can tell he wants nothing to do with me. I want him to say im making the right choice going through with this and we'll atleast try to work on our friendship.
I love him so much but he's acting kinda like my first ex i got pregnant with.
Fuck them both. Why should I do something that I know in my heart is wrong, for them? Guy #1 used me for sex. He's not getting it in his relationship so why not fuck the easy girl and have the best of both worlds. He knew I loved him and wanted to be with him yet he totally fucked with me. Why should I care what he has to lose when he doesnt even think of me. Im just someone he uses to pass the time at work.
Im keeping my child and as of tomorrow will cut off all contact with both guys. I wont be showing by the time I leave for the USVI so only very few people I know IRL will know im pregnant. I have no idea how i'll keep it from getting back to guy #2 since we have a lot of the same friends, but i doubt he would even care. Guy #1 shouldnt be to hard since we don't have any of the same friends, and its not like our families are friends. If I dont allow him on myspace or facebook it should never be an issue. I know this is crazy, no one needs to tell me that. And I know on some level it is wrong. As much as im pissed off at guy #1 I dont want to ruin his life. I dont want to force him to be a father, if he is in fact the father. I know he most likely would step up but I would imagine he'd always blame me and this child for ruining his life. Should it be guy #1's he wont want any part of it anyway.
I know I said I wouldnt talk about it but I have to get it out. I believe in my heart it's guy #1's for a couple of reasons. This may boarder on TMI but when we had sex I was really wet, like more so then normal. I just thought he really turned me on, but now thinking about it I think I was ovulating. When a woman ovulates theres some mucus and that would kinda explain things. He noticed this to, so im not out of my mind. 2- I dont think I could of got a positive blood test had it been guy #2. 3- the time line with guy #1 was closer to the time I thought I ovulated. 4- He did get a bit in me and the rest was in that area, when I cleaned myself off I wasn't very careful about how I wiped, so I may of got more in there. Of course I could never tell him this, but it feels good to let it go.
It's odd but it feels like a weight has been taken off. I know in my heart things will be okay. I love this baby so much. I dont care what they want, im doing whats best.