I wish I could talk to someone about how Im feeling. I can talk to my daughters father, but thats not who i want to talk to. I want to talk to both of the guys. I wish I could tell them how I feel. Guy #1 says he doesnt hate me, but i dont believe him. I can tell his feelings for me aren't the same. I feel like if im going to lose my friends no matter what then why go forward ending everything? I mean its not like id be kicking them out of my life so really why harm myself even more. They wanted me out, and why should i be left with nothing? Loseing the 2 guys I care the most about AND a child is more then I can bare.