Yuck

I feel so yucky right now! My allergies are really acting up. I feel like death :( It sucks big time. I've taken some meds but they make me feel really loopy and not there, and not in a good way lol.
I could be at a bon fire right now waiting for my love to come, but nope im here at my new apartment doing nothing. New guy is still coming, but I don't think we'll do much. We were going to go to a movie, but I don't really feel up for it. I think we'll just go over USVI plans :)
Speaking of new guy, things are still amazing :) I feel so blessed to have found him. I think this is the person i'll spend the right of my life with. Or atleast I hope. Im just so scared of it all going away. Its something i've never had before and I dont want to lose this. I think if he asked me to marry him tomorrow I would. Crazy, I know. I can't even put into words how amazing things are with him. We even have a song :) lol how cheesy is that! But I love it.
I love everything about him. Yep I said it, love. Things feel right. I feel like we've been together forever, but it hasn't even been a month. I get butterflies everytime he calls or comes over. I love how when its just us in the car, he'll hold my hand and start singing "our" song. Or how just randomly gets super romantic. I love the way he kisses me. I love how when im with him I forget about any other guy i've ever been with or liked. No other guy matters when im with him. When im with him it's like all the bad relationships never happened. Like im a teenager again and he's my first love.
It goes against all logic, but I think thats the fun of it. Makes me feel better just talking about him. And whats even weirder is everyone is being so supportive. I kinda hinted at how I felt to my dad and he said to just follow my heart and if I feel its right then go for it. Thats a huge deal for my dad to say that! He hasn't even seen us together, and has never said anything like that to me! Im just taking it as a sign.