For the record im not crazy.

Posted in LJ as well.

Soooo its been awhile since i've updated, so I guess i'll take the time now to do so. First and foremost, im Married :) Nope not crazy, just living life in the moment. Im happier then anyone can ever know, and feel this is 100% the right choice. I know it seems super crazy and fast, but we made the right choice. We both knew we'd end up marrying each other so whats the point in waiting?
I had a talk with my Grandma right before my divorce that really hit me. She said "it took me 60 years to figure out there are no rules in life, once I knew that my life truly started". She also said " What difference does it make to anyone else if the choices you make are wrong, and whos to say they were wrong in the first place". That talk really made me think about my life and what I want from it.
So what if me getting married turns out to be a bad choice in a year, today im happy and that all that matters. I get how crazy it seems to meet and marry someone within a month, but those who have felt what I do right now would understand. I've been through some horrible relationships, I know a good thing when I see it. Greg is my soulmate, the 1 person im meant to be with. And i've never been a believer of soulmates, so for me to say that takes a whole lot.
I feel like every single things i've ever done or been through has led me to him. I know my feelings will never change for him. I get why people are worried and shocked, but really theres no reason to be. Those who know me IRL have been able to see how happy Iam, and that its not a front like last time.
SO thats that :) We're married, happy, and ready to our life as a family. The kids are all doing great (im a step mom to teens, lol whoa), they seem very happy we're married. My step daughter, Cassie, is so excited to have a little sister. You would never know they were only step siblings, all the kids are such a blessing.
Yes we are very actively trying for a baby, fingers crossed it'll happen this cycle (wont know until the very end of this month or early next). I want nothing more then to have a little home out in the country and have a million babies with this man :) God willing we'd like to have atleast 3 or 4 together. So I hope I have some happy news at the end of this month.
We dont have the whole living situation figured out yet. I have an apartment leased, and we're trying to get out of it. Greg only has 3 bedrooms and the house overall is to small for a family of 5 and i hope in 9 months a family of 6. Cassie has offered to share a room with kiddo, but I don't think thats very fair for her. It seems fun now, but at 14 sharing a room with a 3 year old would be annoying. Kiddo would drive Cassie nuts. I still need to sell my house in NC to be able to afford my share for a house, as would he. We've looked at a few and haven't seen anything thats really caught our eye in our price range, sooooo we're most likely going to remodel whatever house we buy :( So not excited to start that again. But Greg has a construction company, so it should be easier and cheaper. We'd like to have atleast 6 bedrooms (4 kid rooms, our room and a guest room), and either a one story house or all the rooms on one floor. We saw a ton of first floor masters which wouldn't work since we have a young child and at some point more kids.
Getting back on track, we're all in the USVI right now. Its amazing and we're having an awesome time. Im sunburned :( and not feeling so hot today. But making the best of it. We just finished breakfast (we're staying at the ritz and the food is amazing) and are going to head out for the day. I'll have more about our honeymoon/ 1st family vacation later.