Like a dream

Life has been almost perfect lately. I never knew being this happy was even possible. I feel like for the first time everything fits and is right. Im where I should be, and im with the person Im meant to be with. Every moment I spend with him just makes me even more sure of that. I feel like im finally at the end of the tunnel and standing in the light. It's an awesome feeling.
We left for vacation on Monday and drove to OH. Had a blast doing Amish stuff, which is kinda funny that we drove to OH to do that when we could drive 20 minutes and do that in IN. Went to the spa, ate tons of food, and just hung out as a family.
After that was my MIL's party, which was amazing as well. I think there were 60ish people there and everyone just let loose and had a ball. Kiddo ended up singing a few songs to her, and pretty much danced nonstop the whole night. lol it was cute.
For the record Iam NOT pregnant. I was really let down at first which is why i didn't want to talk about it. Im still let down, but it will happen when it happens. I was so positive I was, because I mean how many times have I got pregnant by mistake. I felt like if I could get pregnant by a one night stand I should for sure get pregnant right away when I try. Thats the only thing that could make life better right now, everything else is perfect. Everyone and their mother seems to be pregnant right now. I found out within 24 hours that 2 different friends were pregnant, I have a cousin about ready to pop, and I have countless other friends expecting. AND all bu 1 person is expecting their 2nd or 3rd child. Im kinda the odd one out with 1.
Its insane how much I want to be pregnant right now. I've always wanted kids, but after having my daughter I wasn't sure if I wanted another. But these last few months i've had a really strong urge for another, and then I met Greg. Its so much more then an urge now. I think about it non-stop. I could really see us having 3 or 4together, something I never would of dreamed about wanting just 6 months ago.
I can't believe how much life has changed since may/june to now. Im still sad over everything, and there are days it really gets me down. But now I have someone to lean on, on those days which makes them less painful. I truly feel blessed.
We still haven't decided about a large wedding or not. It's so much to plan and we have so much going on already. The timing doesn't feel right, but we havent 100% ruled it out yet. My Grandparents have offered to let us use their hotel (which is very close to where we live), and anything that the hotel provides is our for no charge! How awesome is that! My Grandparents are nothing short of amazing. They've been nothing but giving and helpful to us. My grandpa is in love with Greg. He's known him for many years and I guess always thought very highly of him.
Well it's time to get out of bed and start the day :)