Kiddo has been really into "Charlotte's web" lately (I think it's helping her understand the dying process). The message has really been making me think about how amazing and what a miracle life. There are so many miracles that happen every day that we over look.
IF I HAD MY LIFE TO LIVE OVER (By Erma Bombeck)
I would have invited friends over to dinner even if the carpet were stained and the sofa faded. I would
have eaten the popcorn in the GOOD living room and worried much less about the dirt when someone
wanted to light a fire in the fireplace. I would have taken the time to listen to my grandfather ramble about
his youth. I would never have insisted the car windows be rolled up! on a summer day because my hair
had just been teased and sprayed. I would have burned the pink candle sculpted like a rose before it
melted in storage. I would have sat on the lawn with my children and not worried about grass stains. I
would have cried and laughed less while watching television and more while watching life. I would have
gone to bed when I was sick instead of pretending the earth would go into a holding patter if I weren’t
there for the day. I would never have bought anything just because it was practical, wouldn’t show soil or
was guaranteed to last a lifetime. Instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy, I’d have cherished
every moment realizing that the wonderment growing inside me was the only chance in life to assist God
in a miracle. When my kids kissed me impetuously, I would never have said, “Later, now go get washed
up for dinner.” There would have been more “I Love You’s” and more “I’m sorry’s” but mostly, given
another shot at life, I would seize every minute ….. Look at it and really see it… live it. And never give it
back.
The last few weeks have been life changing. Im ready to move forward in life and make the most of every day. I want my final thought in life to be what an amazing ride, and I wouldn't change a thing. Life is so precious, but yet we waste it evey day. We get caught up in day to day life that we forget just how amazing being alive is. What a miracle it is even to be alive.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
"Hey mom"
So my step-son is a huge joker, he's always playing pranks. Well one of his favorite things to do lately is call me mom in public. It's very clear im not old enough to be his mom. He looks older then me lol. This has got me some very weird looks from people when he does this.
The first time was in the school office. Caught me way off guard and I ended up making myself look dumb trying to explain things. Im not even 10 years old then him @@ Lucky for me the people in the office saw some humor in it. Unlike the Football Booster moms. Wow what a tough crowd!
I have 0 incommon with these women. Most of them are in their 40s, and here Iam a 26 year old step-mom. Im sure gold digger and homewrecker have been used when talking about me. This is the only time our age difference has come up.
So far all the kids friends parents i've met have been nice and very welcoming. So thats a plus. I guess i shouldnt even let this get to me. We're happy and the gap in age truly never comes up between us. Gotta love judgmental soccer moms.
The first time was in the school office. Caught me way off guard and I ended up making myself look dumb trying to explain things. Im not even 10 years old then him @@ Lucky for me the people in the office saw some humor in it. Unlike the Football Booster moms. Wow what a tough crowd!
I have 0 incommon with these women. Most of them are in their 40s, and here Iam a 26 year old step-mom. Im sure gold digger and homewrecker have been used when talking about me. This is the only time our age difference has come up.
So far all the kids friends parents i've met have been nice and very welcoming. So thats a plus. I guess i shouldnt even let this get to me. We're happy and the gap in age truly never comes up between us. Gotta love judgmental soccer moms.
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Been awhile
Wow it's been awhile since i've updated. Life got a bit out of hand there for a moment. Feels good to be back home and into the flow of things again. So heres my crazy long update lol.
Pregnancy- Babywise things are going good. So far this pregnancy is a lot like Kiddos, which kinda scares me. Im getting crazy bad heartburn, always feeling sick, tired, emotions are all out of whack. The only thing different is im always hungry this time. I need to talk to my doctor about getting on some meds or something. I don't want to deal with depression this time. Im seeing a midwife, and as of right now im going to try for a water birth in a birthing center. Im very excited about that. Im very commited to atleast going natural this time, so we're trying to prepare for that. Im going to pilates every weekday morning, reading up on natural child birth and trying to mentally prepare. Yeah its really early, but its hard to turn down the promise of relief when your in the moment.
We're undecided if we're going to find out the sex. We have 14ish weeks before we can, but we keep going back and forth. On one hand I don't want to know. I want to find out after birth. But on the other it would be nice to plan before he/she arrives.
Kiddo- Doing wonderful. All tests came back normal and we can't find anything wrong with her. Their thinking it was stress, but we have to keep an eye on things. Should her bowel issue come back we're going to have to go forward with invaseive tests :( She getting the best care possible now, so I feel better just waiting and seeing.
She loves school. Has a group of friends, all boys @@. One of the boys she calls her bestfriend and their joined at the hip. Its really cute. They've even talked on the phone lol. He's 4, older man. Kinda nerdy kid, but a cutie. The teacher said Kiddo is very well liked, a friend to everyone, and a helper :) She also said she's very fair and good at sharing, which amazes me. Paying attention isn't a strong point of hers and talking has been a bit of a problem.
Hubby- Doing great as well. We've found some land that we're about to put an offer on and he's all excited about that. We're going to build our own house. Pretty much just us, family, and some help from his workers. We're trying to draw up some plans now. It's hard when you have a blank slate to do whatever. We get way out of hand and end up with a billion different rooms lol. But anyway, he's good. He's been extra romantic lately and im loving it. He comes home everyday at lunch :)
We had a death in the family (an uncle on my moms side). I was life changing watching that process. Made me want to do more to help people. Which brings me to work. I really dislike where I work and im positive I don't want to work in a spa. I'd like to get into medical massage or pre-natal/infant. I'll stick out the time I commited to, but after that im done.
I was so blown away with Hospice, that I think I may want to work with them.
Baby daddy and my friend are still together. Im fine with it now, I think she may be good for him. It's not who i'd pick for her, but whatever makes them happy.
Im really tired so i'll finish updating later.
Pregnancy- Babywise things are going good. So far this pregnancy is a lot like Kiddos, which kinda scares me. Im getting crazy bad heartburn, always feeling sick, tired, emotions are all out of whack. The only thing different is im always hungry this time. I need to talk to my doctor about getting on some meds or something. I don't want to deal with depression this time. Im seeing a midwife, and as of right now im going to try for a water birth in a birthing center. Im very excited about that. Im very commited to atleast going natural this time, so we're trying to prepare for that. Im going to pilates every weekday morning, reading up on natural child birth and trying to mentally prepare. Yeah its really early, but its hard to turn down the promise of relief when your in the moment.
We're undecided if we're going to find out the sex. We have 14ish weeks before we can, but we keep going back and forth. On one hand I don't want to know. I want to find out after birth. But on the other it would be nice to plan before he/she arrives.
Kiddo- Doing wonderful. All tests came back normal and we can't find anything wrong with her. Their thinking it was stress, but we have to keep an eye on things. Should her bowel issue come back we're going to have to go forward with invaseive tests :( She getting the best care possible now, so I feel better just waiting and seeing.
She loves school. Has a group of friends, all boys @@. One of the boys she calls her bestfriend and their joined at the hip. Its really cute. They've even talked on the phone lol. He's 4, older man. Kinda nerdy kid, but a cutie. The teacher said Kiddo is very well liked, a friend to everyone, and a helper :) She also said she's very fair and good at sharing, which amazes me. Paying attention isn't a strong point of hers and talking has been a bit of a problem.
Hubby- Doing great as well. We've found some land that we're about to put an offer on and he's all excited about that. We're going to build our own house. Pretty much just us, family, and some help from his workers. We're trying to draw up some plans now. It's hard when you have a blank slate to do whatever. We get way out of hand and end up with a billion different rooms lol. But anyway, he's good. He's been extra romantic lately and im loving it. He comes home everyday at lunch :)
We had a death in the family (an uncle on my moms side). I was life changing watching that process. Made me want to do more to help people. Which brings me to work. I really dislike where I work and im positive I don't want to work in a spa. I'd like to get into medical massage or pre-natal/infant. I'll stick out the time I commited to, but after that im done.
I was so blown away with Hospice, that I think I may want to work with them.
Baby daddy and my friend are still together. Im fine with it now, I think she may be good for him. It's not who i'd pick for her, but whatever makes them happy.
Im really tired so i'll finish updating later.
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